One tough cookie...

Alrighty, so lately I am convinced that Murphy and his ridiculous law are out to get me.. but let it be noted, I am one tough cookie.
The last week has been just aweful, sometimes I feel the only way I can keep my hope bag full is to go to church and home cell, where my faith and hope in myself kind of recharges.
So, I have two ways of looking at this last week.. Backward, and keep re-living the fact that work wise, aweful week, busy, stressful, personal wise, some "person" (Lets not resort to mean words) reversed into our car (without apology) and (being the stressful event that it was)I resorted to some wine and chocolate for comfort (I am a woman, and that was my first "car altercation" and by altercation, I mean, the filthy look I gave the guy - I am by no means confrontational).
OR, I could choose to look forward, keep my hope and faith high this coming week (Even thought I skipped Church due to work and other things), put my C.V's out there (Again), juggle the work I have and complete as much as I possibly humanly can, look at the ding in the car as fixable (and push the costly thoughts out of my head), forward thoughts keep us on the path moving forward, right? right. 
I usually tend to think, some people have alot more going on in their lives, what makes my little troubles so significant, but then I get myself thinking that my troubles are still my own, they may not be big in the span of things but they are big to me. And I suppose they matter, but they should not hold me back from enjoying what I have, and I am blessed with what I have. My pastor keeps saying that I should "allow" God to make the changes in my life. I was chatting to my Sister (who I miss so much and was so great to hear her voice) and I told her, Im not so sure God can see how wide I am holding my arms, I cannot be more ready, and could not "allow" any more than I am already because im completely open. But I suppose all in good time right? right.

 So I have been missing my sister alot, she lives about 4 hours away from me, and as newly weds we currenly are trying to save all our pennies so I dont get to see her too often but we chat, email, call (for 45 minutes at a time..) and text each other quite a bit. I love this photo, it shows just how different (physically) but the same we really are. This photo was taken at the breakfast of my wedding day, just the gals (sorry to the gorgeous ladies I cut out of the picture), my sister is the kind of Gal that cant sit back, she needs to take charge, I am a little more laid back so during the photos at this breakfast, she was sure to be director and because of that I have some lovely breakfast photos. It was the morning of MY wedding and she looked like the had just graciously stepped out of a salon (see the perfect curls on the right) heels and tweed jacket and I looked like I had not-so-graciously stepped out of a wind storm with my pumps and mismatched jersey! hahah. The reason I added my sister to my "Tough cookie" post, is because when I get to that point when I am so low, I know my sister will say something that can pick me up from that really low spot, you know, something only your sister can say. Hahhaha, she was saying last night how sometimes men just dont understand us women, that we are too complicated! And I suppose that is why God gave us sisters, someone that does understand us, regardless of how silly we can sometimes be. Often during our mother nature time of the month, you just feel moody, down, pouty, and how do you explain that to your husband? "honey I am crying because I just saw this TV Advertisement with the cutest baby kitten"? hahaha, these are the times I call my sister. And usually she would respond with, "OMW I just saw the same add and cried like a baby" - Synchronisation. Hahahha. I suppose its the same with men, but they dont really go through the silly mood spirals that we go through. Thats what I love about my husband, he is so level. He is the same, every day. And I also think that is why monogamy is so damn important in our culture, because I think one woman per house hold is ENOUGH! hahahah. 

xoxo